Sunday, June 28, 2015

"Sorry, my hands are full."

 I again wanted to thank everyone who has been praying. I've been feeling better this last week. Mostly by keeping busy, and reading a lot. But it also helps to know my friend was a Christian and I will have the chance to see her again.

 Some interesting things happened on Friday and I had to step back and give a nice long look at my life and my future plans. I'm excited about them but also nervous. And I'm looking into some things and seeing what my next step toward those plans will be.

 But that aside for now, I wanted to do a new Music Monday post. This song is not one I listen to while writing as a general rule. I listened to a lot of these songs though with my friend. And I thought it would be fun to share one with all of you. (That and I've mostly just be listening to Owl City for the last couple weeks so I don't really have another right at this moment I could think to post.)

 This is a song from his newest CD, though the CD is a bit old by now. And it is fun, like most of his songs.

 I took the quote from Tangled since we watched it tonight.


Wednesday, June 24, 2015

MacKenzie Morganthal

 Today I am sharing information about a new book called Not Abandoned.

 Author Bio:

MacKenzie Morganthal is an eighteen year old, Christian, Homeschool graduate. She loves writing, music, and most importantly Jesus. She resides in Pennsylvania where she keeps busy as a freelance author, worship leader, and creative arts director. She also loves going to concerts, and all things chocolate. While some people say she can be a little crazy, she always takes that as a compliment. She has been writing stories for eight years, and "Not Abandoned" is her first self-published novel.

Links/book links:

Twitter: @authorkenzie


Two words….human trafficking.

Four different lives…are altered forever.

Haley, a police officer in training, is thrust right into the heart of an organized human trafficking ring when a family friend is mysteriously abducted. Once the problem hits even closer to home, Haley will stop at nothing to see justice prevail.

With no way out once trapped inside the trafficking ring, is there any hope for rescue? When trouble arises and Caryn’s life is compromised, will she be able to survive or will help come too late?

Strength is tested and trust is broken in this mystery of seemingly impossible rescue and God’s loving redemption. After hearing those words, human trafficking, these girls will never look at their lives the same way again… and neither will you.

 And now for the cover!!


Sunday, June 21, 2015

 This week has been hard. Again, I want to thank everyone who's been praying for me. Right now I really need it. I've been trying hard to keep busy, but mostly that has involved me keeping my noise in a book.

 I don't handle grief well I've come to realize. I've been snappy, quiet, and withdrawn. 

 A lot has been happening to me lately. I've always been convinced no one has a completely happy, easy life. Maybe some people have things a bit easier than others, but we all have problems and struggles which are big to us. 

 That said, my life has never been easy. I've always been reluctant to say this, but it was always because I COULDN'T. I had to keep so much quiet and to myself, and it has made things even harder on me now.

 For as long as I can remember I've been abused. (I don't really wish to go into this, details and all that,) but it was by someone I completely trusted. It is the reason I moved away from home, and the reason I didn't want to leave home, because I loved where I lived.

 I've been going to therapy, which has been wonderful for me. I still suffer a lot of side effects - non stop nightmares, PTSD, depression - but I feel as if I now have the chance to work through all of this. To come out of my little protective shell, even though its been painful to do so. Like pulling teeth. I get jittery asking someone how they slept...

 But there's a reason I mention this. One is that I don't want to feel as if I have to keep it secret anymore. I'm not the only person in the world who was abused. It sadly happens to a lot of people. And I think everyone would be able to recover quicker if they didn't feel as if they had to keep it all bottled up.

 The other reason is I've wanted to shout to the world what my friend meant to me and what she helped me through. 

 When I met her I was in probably the worst state I will ever be in. I was dangerously depressed, I was hardly sleeping, and barely eating. I felt completely alone and hopeless.  I didn't think anyone cared about was all very bad.

 And then I was offered a babysitting job, and given charge over a tiny human being who needed someone to look after her. Someone to be there for her. I felt protective almost instantly. Here was someone who NEEDED me. And I fell in love with her.

 I didn't realize it at the time, but she was helping me as much as I was helping her. She came up with the strangest, funniest antics. She was one of the few people who could make me laugh and keep me from slipping deeper into depression. No matter how hard things got, and they got hard there for a while, I could count on her to be there when I needed someone. 

 There are few people I know like her. She was always alive, that's the only way I've found to put it. She was always doing something, running around, finding adventures. She had the kind of personality which could brighten up a room just because she'd walked into it. And she let few things get in the way of what she wanted to do.

 I miss her, every single day. And at the same time I will never stop being grateful for the time I had with her. I learned so much from her, things I sometimes forget I even learned. But the biggest was that even when horrible things happen you can't just give up living. You can't hide in a hole and ignore people. And even though I am going through bad things doesn't mean everyone around me isn't having problems and needs someone to make them laugh like my friend did with me. I want to be the kind of person she was. Someone who puts others first, who finds ways to make them happy.

 I hadn't realized it until she'd passed away and I heard other people talking about her, but she wasn't like that with just me. Everyone who ever met her could remember some funny story about her, some way she had made their life brighter and better. There aren't a lot of people I've met like that, which only has made her all that more special to me.

I've had a lot of trouble writing this post. I've put it off for months. I've bee wanting to explain some of why I left home and what has been going on but haven't had the courage. I know this turned out very coppy, but it's the best I can do right now.


Wednesday, June 17, 2015

"What do stars do? Shine."

 I've been going over some things the last week. Some of it I'd been thinking about for much longer, I'd intended to post on it sooner than this.

 I haven't felt like writing this last week. I talked to a friend and she thought I should keep writing, as it will force me to actually DO something. I realized there were some books I can't work on right now. Either too many emotions, scenes I know I will just sob through, or other reasons.

 One of the books is the third Haphazard book, which I'd had plans to get out this year.

 I think I should try and post about this another way, or it is going to get confusing.

 I reread Haphazardly Implausible when I began working on the third book. I wanted to make sure I tied together all the smaller plots I had going. When I published book one I didn't have an editor. I'd tried to get one, and ended up so annoyed I couldn't get help I decided to do it on my own. Rereading it, I saw screaming obvious mistakes which had my inner editor dying in agony.

 That is one of the first things which gave me an idea. Another was Brothers-in-Arms. Everyone said I should find a traditional publisher for that one. (I'll post later why I didn't go with one, but not right now. I don't want to make this post too long.) I finally decided to do an independent publisher. (Again, more on this later.)

 While rereading Haphazardly Implausible I thought I should redo that one as well and fix the huge mistakes which stared at me. And then I thought I should try and send it into an independent publisher while I was at it.

 I left everyone with a horrible cliff hanger. I wanted to resolve it MUCH sooner than this. I just know that, right now, I can't get through the third book. There are things with Darcy in that book which remind me too much of my friend and I would just cry the whole time.

 I also can't finish the last Blade book. I mean right now, this isn't a forever kind of thing.

 In the near future this is going to be my writing goals.

 I have some lighter books, some fun ones. I plan to work on those. Some of them are connected to the Blade world, so when I get them going I can talk more about them as I do more world building posts.

 I will also be editing Haphazardly Implausible and looking for publishers for it and the Blade series. I have a few publishers I'm already looking into.

 I also have an announcement for Brothers-in-Arms which I will post about later on. 

 Publication for Finding the Magic is the same. And I'm working on John's book, which will be released September 4th. I even have a cover to show you all today! (He posted about it, naturally.

 Everything is going to be a bit off for awhile while I work on things and get through this. Most of the time all I want to do is read or curl up and watch Doctor Who. (I likely would if I didn't have friends making me get out and do things.)

 Again, thank you for everyone who has been praying. I know it has helped. 

 I'll do the cover now. I'm off work today, so I plan to go out on a walk somewhere, sit under a tree and read a Snicket book.

 We watched Stardust last night so I thought I'd do a quote from it.


Monday, June 15, 2015

 I've had a hard time trying to think of how to write this, and I have decided there isn't an easy way to do it. I've also realized I'm going to need a lot of time.

 The little girl who died was as close to me as a sister. She was my little buddy and had one of the quirkiest personalities I've ever had the chance to meet. She helped me through one of the hardest times in my life, and just had the kind of personality which could brighten up any place she went.

 Her death has hit everyone who knew her hard. I still have trouble talking about it, let alone accepting that she is really gone.

 I've been trying to work again, just to make myself do things. I will be online a bit more again, but I don't know how active I will be.

 I'm going to try and do a better post on Wednesday. Right now, I just wanted to drop another short note. Continued prayers are still really welcome and needed.

 Thank you for everyone who has been praying already. And for your comments.


Friday, June 05, 2015

 This is just a note

 I won't be online this next week. And if I'm online it won't be to blog or read blogs. I don't even know if I will be answering emails.

 June 4th I lost someone very dear to me. I just need time to cope and work on some things. I need a week away.

 I can't explain more and I don't want to go into details right now. But prayers would be hugely appreciated, not only for me but for the family who has lost their little girl. Please pray especially for her dad.

 Thank you.


Sunday, May 31, 2015

"Nothing. I just wanted to be sure of you."

 My spring reading list got off to a slow start as I cut back reading while I moved and packed. The last few days of May I started to reread a bunch of my favourite kid's books as well as the Doctor Who 50th collection of short stories. With summer arriving, I felt in the mood for some really fun, easy stories - that and I'd been wanting to read some of the 50th stories so was pleased to find the whole collection at the library here.

 Nearly all the books have been reviewed on my blog, except for the American Girl ones which I won't be reviewing and a couple others I haven't gotten to yet but will either this week or next.

I read this one twice. I was editing it, I'm still editing it. If neighbors happen to see it fly from a window in the near future I will make no apologies but will follow it by my scream of agony.

Code Name Verity
 I listened to the audio book while my computer was being doctored. The ending, still in pain. So much pain. But I loved it.

The Book Thief
 Another audio book. I didn't listen to the end because I refuse to believe that ending happened. But I loved the rest of it. 

Brothers in Battle, Best of Friends
 A Band of Brothers book. Wild Bill was insane. I loved him

How A Star Falls
 An adorable romance. 

The Battle of Castle Nebula
 Science fiction, amazing characters. It was painful and I wasn't expecting that but I enjoyed it in spite of that.

Diary of a Teenage Superhero
 This one was okay. Not one of my favourites but I didn't hate it either. Not sure I will finish the series though

Voices of the Pacific
 True stories from Marines who fought in the Pacific in WWII. There were times it was hard to read but I nevertheless loved the book because of the men I had the chance to learn more about

Freedom Flyers
 Because it was about the Tuskegee Airmen I liked it, I just wished it wasn't written like a school report

When the Sergeant Came Marching Home
 A WWII story about two boys adjusting to having their dad back home from the war. It was adorable, and even better because it's a true story

My Friend's Book
 Not sure how much I can say about this since it isn't out yet, but I edited it and enjoyed it

Watership Down

Finding the Magic
 My coming soon Beauty and the Beast retelling. I read it twice during edits.

Land of Black Gold
 Tintin. Because I love reading the comics over and over and over and this is one of my favourites

Iron Scouts of the Confederacy
 This book is the reason my middle name is Lewis.

Prince Caspian
 I listened to the audio book. Well, I guess the radio dramas, but I adore these adaptions

Dealing with Dragons
 I didn't think I'd like this book. Not my favourite but I did enjoy it

Call of Duty

 I listened to the audio book. Thought I should take a break since I've read it twice since break I mean listening to it rather than rerereading it. I'll be rerereading it again soon though, never fear

Annabeth's War
 A good friend of mine wrote this book and I've rather fallen in love with Randsom

The Black Island
 My top favourite Tintin story. SCOTLAND! KILTS! PLANES!

The Horse and his Boy
 Another audio drama. I listened to a lot of books this spring to help me fall asleep

A Book I Edited
 Another I can say little about but enjoyed

Parachute Infantry
 Best to read the review I wrote on this one. I can't really sum it up

The Monuments Men
 I LOVED this book WAY more than I thought I would and I went in to it expecting to love it a lot. The ending really got me

 This was a typical fantasy but somehow it worked so much better than the overused plot should have worked

The next few are the adorable Beatrix Potter stories I read. I won't sum them up, but I loved them all. Mixed with them are the Doctor Who stories written in honor of the 50th Anniversary. I won't be summing them up either, but I liked every one of them 

The Tale of the Pie and the Patty-Pan

The Tale of Peter Rabbit

The Tale of Squirrel Nutkin

The Tale of Benjamin Bunny

Voyage of the Dawn Treader
 Audio Drama

 Because this book.......everyone needs to read it

The Tale of Mr. Jeremy Fisher

A Big Hand for the Doctor

The Story of a Fierce Bad Rabbit

The Story of Miss Moppet

The Nameless City

Meet Kit
 I've been wanting to read all the American Girl books. I wasn't sure about the newer girls, I've read all the older ones growing up. Kit's book I did enjoy

Beyond Band of Brothers
 Major Winters from the 101st Airborne. This is his first hand account of his time in WWII

The Tale of Tom Kitten

Meet Caroline
 I ended up liking Kit's more, but I didn't hate this one

Meet Marie-Grace
 I didn't enjoy this much. It was okay, but I think I've come to expect more from the American Girl stories. This seemed to be lacking a lot and while I plan to finish this series, I'm not looking forward to it as much as I am the other girls' books

The Spear of Destiny

The Tale of Jemima Puddle-Duck

The Roots of Evil

Tip of the Tongue

Something Borrowed

The Ripple Effect


The Beast of Babylon

The Mystery of the Haunted Cottage

Nothing O'Clock

Lights Out

The Tale of the Flopsy Bunnies

The Tale of Mrs. Tittlemouse

The Tale of Timmy Tiptoes

The Tale of Johnny Town-Mouse

The House at Pooh Corner
 I love Winnie the Pooh, but I love this book a bit more. The ending still makes me sad, but I adore the stories in this book.

A Bear Called Paddington
 I really want a Paddington living in the apartment with me

 Now I'm off to bed

 Quote is from Winnie-the-Pooh. Piglet talking to Pooh.