Since I lost my other job I had a Saturday off. Which I kind of needed because I have been so tired all last month. So yesterday I made myself be lazy, which wasn't all that hard since I was so tired. I stayed at home most of the day, spent the morning in my pajamas, watched silly cartoons, took Dog on a three hour hike after lunch, then came back and continued to be lazy. It was great.
It also gave me time to think about some things. Mostly my writing and my previously published books, series, which need to be finished.
As I've said, I have had trouble writing since the death of my friend. I haven't wanted to touch the books I was working on before as I found it too hard. While she didn't really help me with my writing, I had a lot of memories of her being around when I did work on them. I needed a break from them and it is only now that I've slowly been able to think about them again.
That is why I took a break from the Haphazard and Loyalty series.
But there has been something I've been thinking of for a while.
Since writing Brothers-in-Arms I learned a lot about writing. A. Lot. So much that when I went back to re-read Haphazardly Implausible before I began work on the third book so many months back I saw bluntly obviously mistakes. (For one thing I should have gotten more editors with it.)
I don't really regret having published before. I think I wouldn't have changed it if given the chance. But looking at those books, especially Haphazardly Implausible, I can see things which I know need fixed.
Since I can't face the third book right now, and since I understand writing and how it works so much better now, and since I have an editor...now seems like a good time to take a huge step back.
Basically, to stop beating around the bush, I am pulling my four published books off the market. I am going to focus first on Haphazardly Implausible and begin a proper edit on it, after which I will re-release it. (I don't know if I can get a publisher for it since it has already been out. I am going to try, but if I can't get one I plan to self-publish it as I did the first time.)
I don't know if this might be a good or bad thing to do. If it is professional and I am hoping it won't mess up the steps I've made toward a writing career, but it feels like the right step to take. (I even have plans for new covers for the series.)
I am also going to begin editing work on The Broken Blade, at long last since I finally believe I have all the kinks worked out of the series. I can't say for sure, with these boys it is hard to tell if they've finally told me everything or if they still have surprises. But I think I know enough about them to begin editing. Which will be nice.
I think I might have to take these two a little slowly. Both are hard to work on sometimes and when I open them I just want to sit down and cry. But the fact I am ready to even attempt trying is progress I suppose.
I also might have explained all of this badly. So if you have questions feel free to ask and I will do my best to answer.
I also wouldn't mind feed back. What do you all think of this idea? Horrible? Good? I've gotten a lot of good feedback on Peter Jones and the Haphazard crew, which makes me happy. But I feel as if I've learned so much and therefore shouldn't leave a book out there when I can see things which need fixed in it.
Quote is from Doctor Who. 12 and Clara