Wednesday, October 01, 2014

"Dying must agree with you or something."

 I've been trying to think up a post since yesterday. I've been having trouble concentrating and focusing on things like posts and blog readings.

 I don't handle changes well. I like things to stay the same, familiar and safe. But a lot is changing in my life right now and I'm not taking it with good graces. (I tend to stare off into space, ignore people when they talk to me - though I don't mean to do it) and cry more than is normal. 

 It isn't exactly horrible. I have a lot of support and I know if I trust God He will direct me and show me where I'm supposed to go in this upcoming year, but it is still hard.

 Part of the new changes have to do with my writing. Spending more time on the third Haphazard and Loyalty books has given me time to consider publishing options and new marketing ideas. I want to try some things out, but I have to figure out how they will work first.

 The biggest thing is a possible move next summer. Not just a move across town but States. I've lived in Wyoming my whole life, same town. I am excited to try something new, but terrified at the same time. 

 On top of all that I've seemed busier now more than before. Not so much writing busy, but other jobs. Also, my summer threw me off so I am trying to get back into things. I am getting there, slowly. 

 I will keep this short. I have emails to answer. I thought a bit of an explanation might be helpful though. I'm not ready for details yet, but maybe soon. Just, prayers are really welcome right now 8-)

 Things to do!

 Quote is from Charmed Life by Diana Wynne Jones.




  1. More and more I'm coming to realize that I hate change too. Change is hard. Change is more than hard sometimes. And worse, change is one of the scariest things in the world. New things are terrifying. I hate new changes that I know nothing about. I wish I could hide away for the rest of my life... but I know I can't... so that's why I'm learning to take comfort in verses like "I can do everything through him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13). There are others... but I'd be lying if I said I knew any more by heart. Most of them come from "Bible verses about strength" lists. Truth is, fear comes from the devil. So I guess Psalm 27:1 is a good verse: "The LORD is my light and my salvation-- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life-- of whom shall I be afraid?" But I'm still scared, even though I have the God of angel armies on my side, and even though I know I shouldn't be.
    I'll be praying for you. I hope the change in your life goes well, and that you don't get too overwhelmed. It's good to know that God is on our side, even if its hard to believe sometimes. We serve a good God.

  2. I don't handle change well, so I totally understand you there. *offers consoling chocolate* I'm always a full flooded mess when unexpected things happen or even when I KNOW big things are coming up. Gah. I hope it doesn't get too overwhelming for you!!

  3. Becca and I have been going through some changes too, and even though it can be hard, God is in control! It's really an amazing thing to think about.
    We'll be praying for you!

  4. Change is not something I've ever liked. Oddly enough, however, I've come to welcome it more as I get older. (Having kiddos helps a person embrace change... and things that don't go as planned in general) ha!

    I'll be praying for you.

    I LOVE Charmed Life!!!!!!!! Such a good book!

  5. Ugh, change. I always seem to subconsciously dig in my heels. Even if I know the change is good or if I'm looking forward to it. There's been a lot of change for me this year too.

    Keep going! The good thing about change is that eventually it becomes the new normal.


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